Wishful Thinking

Can I vent for a second? I promise to do better tomorrow.

I wish I could be the girl to kick and scream when things don't go right instead of internalizing it all and breaking down later.I wish I could be the girl that didn't watch silently as lies are told to her face.I wish I could be the girl that spoke freely the very moment something didn't feel right.I wish I could be the girl that didn't always say "I'm fine" when the world is on her shoulders.I wish I could be the girl to pretend to have a tough exterior all the time.I wish I could show that I care more. Maybe I wouldn't lose so many people in the process.I wish I gave myself enough time to cry and grieve properly.I wish I had a computer to write all this down and not through my phone. Lol. *smile*I guess I'm wishing I wasn't the way that I am but how wasteful it is to think like that. My wishful thinking is actually destructive to my betterment. This is how I am now, but not forever. So instead, I'm hoping and looking forward to better days.Posted with WordPress for BlackBerry.